...aaaarghhh im going to scream in frustration
why the hell am i always stuck in second gear....? pleaaase god theres got to be an answer to this one ...i mean you have to absolutely have to answer this one ...why the hell can't i have an absolute ten on ten figure,...a great ,dashing,smart ,good looking,witty,funny,caring,sensitive ,romantic,perfect hunk of a male for a boyfriend ....who dances like patrick swayze ,plays guitar like kurt cobain ,and spends his vacations abroad....why the hell can't i get up on time ,get ready in a jiffy ,and get out of the house in seconds and not take some goddamn two hours agonising over where ive misplaced my ID card...?why can't life be just the way i want it to be ? not one inch to the right not one inch to the left,,...the way i see it why doesn't it ever materialize..perfect ..straight not curves,or twisted lines..im sick of living in a world of not quite not yet or just haves...why can't i just top as in you know "top" for once in class and not just get first divisions?...if i had my way id utilize every second not let it run away like that but instead ive spent my past four day holidays doing next to nothing ..sleeping ten hours a day afternoon siestas ,bedtimes and just loitering about the house ...had thought would go to the beaches during winters this year so might as well start dieting considering how much id like to wear a sarong..but after the first day i was back to eating "nutties"...did some abdomen exercises today but realizing how much work it was gave up midway,had grand plans of building my stamina with walking,running,jogging,circuit training...a relatively new concept read about it in a workout magazine n since then im dying to try it out...but haven't got round to starting it despite the available bulk time ....................
i think its high time i pull up my socks but what if the socks continue to sag down?.....